scared
There is a lot of stuff happening in my life right now. Crazy stuff. Everything is happening at once. I’m usually a upbeat, positive, and fairly happy person but all this has me hiding that I’m scared witless. I really might have my dream job in 2 weeks. Didn’t think there was even a chance of that happening. There is another situation in my life right now too that could potential change my life even more than the job situation and part of me just knows this is all going to work out. Yet I’m still scared. I’m not strong enough to handle all this but everything could turn out really, really good like too good to be true. The good coming out of this suspense waiting period where I am almost overcome with fear: I have to trust Jesus. I like being in control. I’m management person but this is all way far out of control and I don’t want to control the outcome of this because I’m not sure what I want to happen. Something huge is about to happen, I know it and it scares me. For this first time in my life, I’m glad I’m not in control of this.Gina Blaze from Fires of Prayer shared with me something at the SoulFest last year when I was going through another hard situation that changed my life. The paraphrase of what she shared is peace is something we consciously equip ourselves with as part of the armor of God. I’m trying to have a spirit of peace about this all. Gina Blaze is the real deal. In my years of working for the SoulFest, I’ve skeptically avoided their ministry at the SoulFest until I desperately needed it and Gina sought me out. Plus she bought me a delicious iced coffee after she prayed with me. Who does that? Thank you Gina for the coffee and the advice God knew I would still be using months later…
